..in my own world

I worry na dili unya siya dali mawala. i spend my internet hours searching about chicken pox. mostly daw mada ra ug home treatment and dili necessary ang bed rest. naa untay tambal na makapagamay sa chances sa pagdaghan sa mga blisters. kaso lang, mahal ug kailangan i-take to xa kung usa or very gamay pa lang ang quantity sa mga blisters. karon mga 200+ na cguro naa sa ako lawas and lisod kaayo ilihok and i have to stay in one position kay ubay-ubay najud ang nanubo.

mga one week daw ni. naay uban duha or tulo ka weeks. OMG. ok ra nako ang one week pero two weeks is too much and three weeks is suicide!

im not really worried about the pain im experiencing now. nakulbaan lang ko na basig maglisod ko ug catch up sa lessons if ever more than a week akong chicken pox. though im the type of person na mas makasabot kung  magbasa (plus discussion gamay sa teachers), i cannot do some serious reading right now kay dili jud ko makafocus. ganiha nakatuon ko for an hour but thats about it. katol jud kaayo ako lawas. and sakit pajud matandog. makawala jud sa concentration.

if ever naa mi blender para makahimo ko ug oatmeal bath coz ang tambal na ako giinom, wala kaayo siya nitalab.

i cant practice answering math/physics/whatever problems coz naa napud sa ako right hand (palm, index finger).

this is soo depressing. ive cried for more than five times already. mura man pud kog nabuwagan ani uy. haha! pero seriously, it's almost my mom's bday and i cant even help her prepare food for our visitors. i cant socialize with the visitor (haler, di ko nahan manakod). i cant hug (or something) my mom. i cant personally give her my gift (i'll let my ate do it). i cant go near to my old ninang (low immune system na cguro, dali ra niya matakdan. dili napud unya makaya sa lawas). arrrgh! pero karon i cant hug my younger bro and he cant sleep beside me anymore.

maka-paranoid. maka-buang. atay uy.

the last but not the least sa akong worries is....... the peklat. or, mucreate xa ug craters sa ako skin. atay uyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.