..in my own world

This is awfully weird. And I don't know how I should feel and act. Well, all I do now is just keep my mouth shut. But it's everywhere. And I can't believe how big this issue has already become. For all I know, it's not actually THAT much of a deal for us. Well at least that's what my friends think. My friends, who are involved in a "war".

All I can remember is that, it all started when some people shared a common dislike. It was no biggie for me actually. We all do have those kind of things and I believe they are normal. As I looked at it back then, I thought it was just going to stop and everything will be back to normal again. But I was wrong. I never expected some people would take it personally. Believe me, I have nothing against them. It's just, I'm so bothered on how they handled the situation. I know, my friends should have confronted the person they disliked but tell me, would people actually do that? I mean, some people just tend to stay away from people who makes them unhappy or whatever. I don't think you can just tell a person that you don't like them and then expect from then on that things will already be alright and that neither of the two parties are offended, diba?

Honestly speaking though, it was unwise, very unwise, to give up friendship over something that I don't believe would quite amount into something as great as friendship. I'm so sorry to say this, again, I have nothing against you, but really, don't you see? You were hurting her. I know she was in a position in which she really had to choose (although she wasn't obliged to do so). Whatever she felt/feels for you, it must be that err, real or true or whatever that she really had to choose you over her friends. Don't you think you were being insensitive and selfish? If you really cared for her, you would know that she's better off with her friends.

But fast forward, friendship is now ruined. And I really should have said the things that I just said, but I don't think it was the best thing to do. Oh well.

And now, the unexpected should have been anticipated, cause now, it's already happening. My first reaction was, "is this for real?". Of all people, really. Apparently, some people just have the need to spread and even modify things. To spread was really unnecessary. But to modify? It's too much. Yes, I believe, the truth is hidden and the lies are displayed. But why oh why? I really do not understand. There was really no need to make things big because it should have just been settled by the people who are really involved in the issue. No, again, I have nothing against you/them. They/you have done nothing to offend me. But you just changed the way on how I see you. Well I guess I was never informed of your true personality. But nevertheless, as a young adult, you should have acted better, regardless of whether you are immature or not. Puh-leez! Believe it or not, I really had a hard time trying to find a valid reason why you did what you did. Tell me, has the world gone insane or what?

And now, this. This really made me very upset. And shocked. And disappointed. You see, I'm no war freak. I prefer to stay in silence, not for the reason that I'm afraid. But to dwell in such nonsense for me is really a waste of time. And to do so just means you are affected. But now it has gone this far. I chose to shut my mouth amidst the pain I feel because my friends are being hurt. They are being blamed at. It's so unfair how people keep on pointing their fingers at my friends. They don't even bother to hear their side. No! You people never do! Because, what? You really believe the things that you hear? Don't you think it's your obligation to talk to them before making any comments about the issue? And oh, yes the issue. It has changed. Do you people even know what the issue is now? Maybe. But I highly doubt if it's the truth. Because, if you people really know the truth, then you would know who to "tame".

Yes, tame. I'm having a really hard time not to sound rude here. Forgive me if I may offend you (whoever you are) deeply. It's not my intention to do so. And I don't want to sound bias, but it's unavoidable, so forgive me again. And I want to make things clear, I don't want us becoming enemies but I feel the need to say the things that I'm about to say. I think there is no stopping me now. Again, no hard feelings.

So yeah, tame. I think it's not very necessary for you to be offended when people choose not to tell you everything because maybe, just maybe, they don't want you to be involved or bothered with the situation. I believe you should respect what your friends say to you. You should consider yourself lucky when people trust you with their secrets but when they don't, you have to accept that. You shouldn't be bothered or be upset or whatever. Then, drop it. Don't let it occupy your mind. As what you've said, you have far more important things to do other than bashing and calling names and everything that you've been doing for the past few weeks. But what are you doing now? Have you forgotten the things you said?

Honestly really, I don't understand what triggered you. Well, I was informed. But I didn't believe it at first. All I can say is, mao ra to? That is why you have to act like that? Lagi uy, wa kay giurungan. No question to that. But for what again? I can't believe my ears. Really, you must be kidding me.

And please, if you're so eager to fight, you shouldn't really involve anything personal. It just shows you have nothing else to say. So again, stay on the topic at hand.

How dare you say my friends are "nagpalaban". Hmm, let's see. Tell me, how many people told you that my friends are "pakapin sa bobot"? And enumerate the people you think that my friends are wrong? And why oh why, you only had to confront my friends when your sister was already around? As what I've remembered, the day before you did that, you came across with my friends but you did not make your move. I thought you were about to give us one hell of a show by that time. But no, I wonder why you never looked our way. I don't believe you were afraid of us (mga walay apil) being around. Perhaps, you just needed someone to be there with you when you attack. Maybe. But remember this, my friends never made an effort to inform other people about the recent issue. Or let's just say, they preferred to handle the situation all by themselves and not to involve people out of it. And they never tried to look for back ups. In short, wala sila nagpalaban. When they knew more people already knew about this "war", they are just like, "wala sila'y buot..", and then continue whatever they did before that.

And oh, I'm so touched with your sister! She's so concerned. You must be really lucky to have a sister like her. But unfortunately, I have to take my words back. Sorry. You see, of all people, your sister should be one of those people to restrain you from doing anything stupid or uncivilized or barbaric (whichever of the words apply). After all, you're family! So it's really sad that she has to get herself involved in this mess. Aren't you ashamed of what you are doing right now? I don't believe she really wanted to be involved (I'm not sure actually and I can't believe I just said that). I believe it has something to do with the things that you are doing and how awfully bad they have become.

So quit it, ok? Shut it. Shut up! Please. Just focus on your studies. Or your org. Or whatever. Just stop getting into fights. It's unhealthy. And it's starting to show on your face.

I just want to make it clear, it was my decision to make this post. None of my friends told me to do this. And if you have plans to make a comment, please read this all over again. As much as possible, I refuse to entertain comments regarding this issue because in the first place, I am not involved in this fight. And I don't hate you guys. If you think I'm being plastic with you, no. That's not true. But I have to do this. Because I care for my friends.

And before I forget, if you want this over with, and since you are very eager to shower your saliva all over my friends' faces, I suggest you decide the time and place. Ok?

And I want to add something. To the people who have been told about this issue, shut your mouths. Most especially if you've heard it from someone I mentioned above. Shame on you to comment when you don't even know the entire thing. I assume you are all much older than me, and I expect you to act more maturely. I don't care if you are friends with the people I mentioned above. Let's put more logic and reason into our actions. Just verify before you start to open your mouths.